Carrying Boxes

Lately I have been having a lot of strange dreams and it does get weirder and weirder, I mean I am dreaming about somebody, even thought I am not thinking about that person at the moment but when I do, I feel melancholic and sad, sometimes it is hard not to think about that person, and no, not by drinking which I haven't done in a long time, not real drinking, like getting drunk drinking but just one glass of something rather than the whole bottle like I used to do. I mean does that mean that I am subconsciously thinking about that person which is strange because I am happy at the moment so why is it that I am subconsciously trying to make me feel sad? I love my dreams and some of them are so surreal and magical that my lives seems to be boring if I wasn't able to dream. Well not that dramatic,! my life is not that dull, it is fun and all that but not like something that I would have imagined to be, lying on the beach and writing my books but lately I haven't been doing much exciting things besides convincing people to vote for me. Maybe that is a loosing cause that isn't worth fighting which is how I feel sometimes, maybe sometimes it is better to learn to give up rather than continue fighting for a loosing cause. I don't know, I always fight until the end.