Pensive Mood

Been almost 2 weeks in Melbourne and I am still finding it hard to believe that my first year in Australia is about to end, will I embark on my second year in Australia or will I just leave and go somewhere else. I haven't seen a lot of Australia, not the main touristic part of it, like the Uluru, Northern Territory, the gold coast or even Tasmania but for the past two weeks I have seen myself wasting my life doing absolutely nothing, waiting for the day to pass just so I can figure out what to do and giving excuses that I have been resting isn't really worth my time here in Australia. I have been doing something but traveling alone can make me feel a bit lonely. I have given the thought of going to Brazil for a few months and then return to Australia to resume my journey but then what is the point when I am here for holiday why should I go to for a holiday within a holiday. I have to make myself believe that I am in holiday mode again. I haven't been in holiday for more than 5 months, been constantly, well kind of working but somehow did enjoy it. I did enjoy the pace of life back in Perth somehow got too used to it that now I feel out of place but I am still trying to adapt myself to this new place in Melbourne, I have been trying to rely of things that were beyond my control that I have forgotten my own needs. Whether I go to Brazil or not I will have to find out what I want from this first.