Perplexity

Melbourne for sure is nice but living in a new city without really knowing anybody can be a bit suffocating, it is like living in a hostel with complete strangers, sometimes you feel lonely not that because you are not surrounded by people but because you are surrounded by strangers. It is not that hard to get to know people again, I mean it is easy and nice but somehow I do feel reserved about meeting people again, somehow I feel a bit reserved, somehow I just feel so bored that I really want to leave, I have been thinking about leaving and fantasizing about going to Brazil, I mean it is cheaper to live there and since I am writing a book I need to make sure I can live without the need to work for a few months not until I finish my project, I can't be distracted this time and I don't to be postponing it again and again. I do feel better when I am planning to do something. It has been already a week and I just don't see myself doing anything productive and I just do want to waste my life living in a limbo because I don't want to regret for not living my life at full. However choices are so hard and maybe Australia ain't for but who knows if I never tried my best. I am just going to see how it all goes.