Antagonize

The last few days in Sao Paulo was rather enjoyful than unpleasant, coming out from a short fling was very uplifting. I mean it was a five year fling but it was a fling cause there was not accord whether we were really dating or not, a short kind of fling cause most of the time I wasn't in Brazil, I was somewhere else travelling so somehow it wasn't meant to work, it is as it is, when it isn't what it is, you can force it. When something that wasn't mean to be, it will never meant to be and there was no point for us to stick with each other when clearly there was not spark between us, it was amicable and we remain "friend", right now we are moving on and avoiding each other but time will heal us and hopefully we can someday look at each other and say hi. I felt that coming to Paraguay side of the waterfall after Sao Paulo was a bit too much, well I felt gloaded into coming here, I love this place but somehow I was convinced into coming here just so I can bring some pet fish (alive) and after that am I just supposed to just go back, I felt kind of used. I have been antagonized for the past week so that I can MAKE the right decision, yeah I did and every decision I do stand by it. However sometimes it feels wrong, that someone would do such a thing, but the thing you have to know about me, is that I always look on the bright side of life. So I am as well taking this opportunity to find my inner me and focus on my career, if I still have one and my hobbies. Living here is as cheap as it comes, and in the meantime I can alwasy find something producte, only if the weather was a bit more cooperative, I would have been able to go to the LAKE, a nameless lake, funny uh, the people from this city were too lazy or uninspired to even name its own lake but its a lake and hopefully I can run and keep myself fit and reduce the consumption of alcohol, at least to twice a week. I said reduce not giving up, come on I need some thrill and entertainment and the bottle of cachaca seems to be the only thing that gives me the rush, if you know what I mean!