Bigotry

Tonight we planned to go to Festa Junina or Sao Joao in Portuguesse, San Juan in Spanish and Saint John in English and is to celebrate that saint’s day and it has been historically related to the midsummer and Saint John festivities in Europe which take place in the beginning of Brazilian winter so as we prepared to go there I decided to take a nap. I was so tired, me and my friend Sandra we went to eat Rodizio and ate as much as we could and then came back and drank some Vinho Quente which is like a kind of mulled wine with apples and herbs which is great for winter and it warms you up and makes you sleepy, and somehow it gave the weirdest dream ever, I dream that I was old with my grandchildren and other relatives, I was in the hospital laying on my dead bed, I was about to die and in that I was dreaming of being young and taking advantage of my youth and what I should have done when I was young, it was kind of bizarre, cause it felt so real, I felt like I was about to die, and I was looking at my grandchildren and they were all so young and so innocent, as I breathed my last breath I died and I went somewhere that I can’t describe or remember but it was so fast then I woke up feeling breathless and took a long breath to realize it was just a dream. Does that mean anything because I don’t want to regret my for the rest of my life what I could have done and didn’t do. I want to do more, people keep telling me that they don’t dream much but I dream every night, it’s great, I love my dreams but sometimes it feels just too real, after that nap, we went to the party, it was crowded with people, it was free admission so it was packed, it reminded me of Bolivian Kermess, where people sell food and let children play games, like a fair or festival, it was a the cavalry military quarter, something like that and they were federal police training place and there were plenty of horses one which was a nice one and very photogenic, somehow it liked to munch our clothes and hair and keep and was very affectionate and wasn’t scared in letting people caress it, none of the horses over there seemed to be worried by the amount of people walking there and looking at them. It was nice to see them; it made me realize how much I love animals. They are an interesting creature to watch and be inspired by.